Plastic Hearts &Paper Bags

Saturday, June 30, 2007

first week back at school's been crazy .

but glad to see everyone again

after a whole month!

but the teachers weren't very glad

to see me again sad to say.

thank god ,

i didn't get punished for not

handing in my holiday homework on time.

anyways,

went for the Barker Carnival today

with Jenn and Jazreel.

it wasn't very good ):

hung out with Ben for a little,

then dinner and ice cream at siglap

with Brian and Nat.

Thanks for the concern Benny (:

but i think what you said

was like uber scary can.

"if he breaks your heart i break his leg"

zomgxxxxxxx.

but i love you big brother!

"get down, yo!"

vulnerable

Y

Monday, June 25, 2007

We'll be playmates and lovers, and share our secret words.

Yes, I love you too.

vulnerable

Y

this is for Nick who's got his heart broken.

cheer up alright,

things'll get better soon.

"I'm not the only one for you, but you're the only one for me."

she might not love you the same way you love her.

it sucks to see you this way Nick.

i've been through all this shit,

and honestly i don't think she's worth it.

vulnerable

Y

Sunday, June 24, 2007

she doesn't deserve to be

in a place like this all alone,

she's underage &so very very brave ,

a fake ID lent her credibility,

she sits at the bar,

oh the gents are gonna try so hard.

so the bartender who tends to pretend

that he's concerned says,

"Girlie girlie, you're at your best when you're sober ."

&she slurs, "No no, just one more."

so one turns into four .

the fourth drink instinct is taking over,

&the gentleman is leading her to the door.

he said it was a one night stand,

but the alcohol didn't let her understand.

yeah he said it was a one night stand.

so what made you think he couldn't

find the door in the morning,

when he found that bed so easily in the dark .

she thought she could buy

happiness by the bottle .

yeah he said it was a one night stand.

vulnerable

Y

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Thank You Very Much!

vulnerable

Y

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

VACATION

finallyyyy!

i was hoping to go to Bangkok

or some place like that.

but no,

mother chose Malaysia (KL).

so yeah,

gonna leave tmr morning

and come back on saturday night!

it's a really short trip,

but then again there's not much

to do in Malaysia is there?

oh well,

i haven't mentioned that i got my

huge stuffed Patrick Star!

yes yes (:

mommy bought it for me.

it's biiiiiiiiiig!

a picture soon , yes.

drama again this morning .

but it was worse than monday's.

only Andrea, Lizzie and i turned up!

the trampoline-ers too (but they had to go for trng).

what the fuck right.

i vow not to go for the next rehearsal.

it'll just be another day wasted.

vulnerable

Y

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

had drama yesterday,

woke up at 7plus in the morning

just to go to schoooool.

reached there,

and practically everyone else

didn't go for rehearsal!

(wasted my time i tell you)

we didn't do anything at all.

yes i meant nothing.

so Andrea and i met Anna

because Anna hadn't come for rehearsal.

trained to town,

went to the arcade (haha),

played Daytona and watched

Anna do the ParaPara thing .

Andrea and i nearly died laughing,

cause' Anna was flapping

her arms here and there .

(: good fun ,

but i was in a bad mood cause

i hadn't slept at all the night before.

met up with Ben and bus-ed home.

sorry for being really mean

to you that day Ben D:

i haven't touched my holiday homework.

teachers are gonna kill me.

vulnerable

Y

Sunday, June 17, 2007

live your life until love is found,

'cause love's gonna get you down.

mom told me what i should know,

too much candy's gonna ride your soul .

take a look at the girl next door,

she's a player and a down right whore.

Jesus shows up,

but she wants more,

oh bad girls get you down.

look at me,

do i give two flying fucks about what you

and your little friends think of me?

-grins

no i don't.

so you can just suck hard on your

lollipops and run along now,

with your pathetic online-made friends.

'cause i've got it so much better.

vulnerable

Y

two amazing things that happened within one week :

ben shaved his head (screams)

sarah's back! (screams louder)

so on thursday Nat asked me out saying

she had something really important

to tell me and all.

so i met her,

10 minutes later sarah came

and gave me a big shock! (:

haha i've missed her so so so much!

then friday watched Ocean's13 with Ben,

came home late and tired .

yesterday shopped with Stef & Sarah,

watched Fantastic4 when Ben joined us.

they all left after that,

so i met up with TheKids :D

someone told me to meet them

at The Cathay when they were at Cine ,

so i cabbed to plaza sing,

and realised they weren't there.

cabbed back to town again

ate at seoul garden,

walked around till 11 ,

cramps got really bad so i went home.

it was raining ):

i recently realised how lucky we all are,

we're so fortunate to be able to do

the simplest things like walk

to the bathroom to pee .

i've been to Ceshire Home twice,

this place for the severely disabled.

at first i only went to clock up my CIP points.

but when i reached there,

all the residents of the home opened up my eyes.

everywhere i looked,

there were old disabled people sitting around

in wheelchairs drooling/staring blankly.

some could talk,

some couldn't.

there was one old lady who really touched me,

her name's Dulcie Wee.

i call her Bibik (meaning Aunty).

she's this old peranakan lady,

who had both her legs amputated,

plus she's blind in one eye.

Bibik told me that when she was younger,

she could walk, jump, run

whenever she pleased.

but then something dreadful happened,

and she lost both her legs.

despite this,

she's still very cheerful and talkative.

she talks about the weather,

flowers,

her favourite food,

her family.

as i pushed her wheelchair around the small garden,

i smile to myself.

all of us,

day in and out we complain and whine.

when really,

we have nothing to whine about.

here,

there's this poor old lady who's

lost her legs and half her eyesight,

and she's content just being alive.

when i was just about to leave the home,

three ladies came to visit her,

she told them ,

"this (points at me) is my friend, Audrey"

yes,

i thought.

my friend Dulcie Wee.

vulnerable

Y

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Shot Through The Heart,

& You're To Blame.

Darling, You Give Love A Bad Name.
those candied words,

they slip through your lips,

smooth as honey.

you say things like,

'I can't live without you',

'You mean the whole world to me',

'I'd do absolutely anything you want me to'

and such.

i let these words wash over me,
then i wonder .

how many other girls have

you said those words to?

just when i decided that i

could trust you,

that horrible little thing

i like to call 'The Past' ,

crept up on me from my behind

and cruelly reminded me of how

badly i got hurt the last time i

decided to trust someone with my heart .

back then,

i felt as if my heart had shattered

into a million tiny pieces .

and those pieces fell into

this big bottomless pit.

i've only dared peek over the edge to try

and spot the miniscule pieces a few times,

to no avail.
i saw nothing but endless darkness,

and one day i mustered up the courage

to dive right into that dark pit,

to recover the remains of my broken heart.

now i'm stuck here,

and only you can save me.

vulnerable

Y

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

JEALOUSY,

it's ugly

i hope the love she gave you

was just enough to save you.

you nearly broke my heart,

just look at what you're tearing apart .

stab my back,

cause it's better when i bleed for you.

what could've been that important

at 2a.m in the morning?

it's different now,

and i wonder if i made the right decision

three months ago.

vulnerable

Y

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

going to meet Abbee in town tmr!

had a really tiring day .

good night all .

vulnerable

Y

Friday, June 01, 2007

i found a place so safe,

not a single tear.

the first time in my life &now it's so clear .

feeling calm i belong,

i'm so happy here.

it's so strong &now i let myself be sincere .

i wouldn't change a thing about it,

this is the best feeling.

it's a state of bliss,

you think you're dreaming.

it's the happiness inside that you're feeling .

it's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry .

Polka-dots

Don't You Let It Pass You By

The Superheroes

Let It Go

Upskirtttt-ers

Feeling So Alive

Lovelies [:

vulnerable

Y